My brother, father and nieces and nephews rallied and cried. We mourned her death while my neighbors hand washed all the china and silver. It was a blessing to have everyone that could be here, together. And really so nice to not have to face that mess when we came up for air.

After another glass of wine, it was time to feed my two horses, Boo and KoKo. Paint mares. They were “off” somehow. Boo came straight to me and put her head on my shoulder. KoKo was acting colicky. She wasn’t interested in her food which never happens and she was kicking at her belly and turning her head toward her belly. So I got her lead rope and we walked, and walked until something happened. Think you know what I mean. Then she eat all her grain and dove into her hay as if nothing ever happened. I went back out later, after dark with a lantern and my sister in tow to check on them and again, they both came up to me, not like I had food but in such a gentle sweet way I can’t began to describe. I was so comforting.

My sister battled stage 3 ovarian cancer for over 7 years. She worked right up until she went into the hospital for the last time. She is our Christmas miracle. I put up a tree in her honor. It’s silver with teal ornaments. Teal is the color for ovarian cancer awareness. It has a little angle on the top. I light it everyday and say a prayer for her. It’s called the Lindy tree. Her name is Linda Hagman. She loved the idea of the Lindy tree and told all her friends and co-workers. Think of the Lindy tree and say a little prayer for her.

Thanks for listening. I needed it.

Marilyn